Revised Jun 6 2021

No. 90. Mr. P. Heywood to Miss N. Heywood.

Hector — 7^th Oct^r 1792

The Date of my dearest Nessy's of Yesterday surprized me very much indeed! — yet I must own I had some Idea that either you or James wou'd take a Trip to Town on reciept of Mr. Graham's Letter's — pray my Dear are you come alone, or is James with you? — I see your little Bravery of spirit as you called it can surmount the greatest Difficulties; & all for a poor son of Misfortune! but my sweet Girl if it is not in my Power to reward you, that Being who permits us to enjoy Life will do it one Day or other! — What Obligations my dear Nessy are we under to the inestimable Mr. Graham & an hundred other Friends! — You say you must hope — Alas! my Love! it is nothing but a broken stick which I have leaned on, & it has pierced my soul in such a Manner that I will never more trust to it, but wait with a contented Mind, & Patience for the final Accomplishment of the divine Will — You wish to know how I am in Health — & to tell you the exact state of my Body & Mind at present, — I never was in better Health or Spirits in my Life: but recollect that Mrs. Hope is a faithless & ungrateful Acquaintance with whom I have now broke off all Connections, & in her stead have endeavoured to cultivate a more sure Friendship with resignation, in full Trust of finding her more constant — your mentioning that you left my dear Mother in better Spirits than cou'd be expected has exhilerated mind, more than I can express — May Heaven continue to her the Enjoyment of them & her precious Health!

My reason my dear Sister for desiring you not to write much was, lest you might hurt yourself by it, & from an Idea that your exalted sentiments upon so tender a Subject ought not to be known by an enquiring World — but do just as you like best — I am conscious that your good sense will prompt you to nothing inconsistent with our present Circumstances — I have not heard from my Uncle Pasley since the Trial ended — if you see or write to him give my most sincere Duty; & endeavour when you write Home to raise my dear Mother's Spirits, & tell her I am in perfect Health & have never yet felt the least Depression of spirits except on her Account & that of my dear sisters &c — For God's Sake let nothing prompt you to come here but rest content with our benevolent Friend Mr. Graham. I need say no more — but only recommend to you my dear Nessy to keep up your Spirits, & trust to him whose Will only can be done towards your

ever affectionate

  & most faithful Brother

    P: Heywood.